Valentine's Day

So hey. Valentine's Day is happening, and be it single or attached, this day will affect you. Don't say you don't celebrate, or it doesn't affect you at all. One way or another, be little or a lot, it will.

The attached ones; stressing about how are they going impress their partner. Unknowingly have expectations for the opposite side, and thinking no matter how mainstream this is, they have to show their love.

The broken one; that are most probably in the getting over someone period, or just broke up, or just had a terrible argument when Valentine's Day is near.

And the "I don't care" when deep inside, they missed that feeling being loved and to love, or perhaps hoping to actually have that chance to indulge in it, but for now, acting like it is cool and not necessary.

As for me myself, I admit, I am tired of relationships. Or even to ask someone's number, to text someone, to date or "jio" someone. Cause the last relationship was hell. And what I got from that last relationship? Not just heartbroken, but hatred from people who do not know shit and do not deserve to know shit about my private life.

Yes, yes, you may tell me; "then who ask you to be famous?" and shit like that.

I never wanted fame. I wanted to sing. To act. Make videos. Do what I love. That is why I randomly tried my luck in Channel U's Campus Superstar, and Ah Boys To Men. To try, for fun. For example, which Chinese boy would wake up in the morning, and aims to win Vasantham Star, or an Indian boy having dreams to make it big in a Japanese reality show.

I must say, things are going well this year. Maybe it is because last year was ridiculously a terrible year, or so far, no "publicity stunts" or controversies occurred. It is not THAT stagnant, but it is good. I appreciate how life works. No downs, I won't understand the ups. We need both the ups and the downs.

I admit, I miss being in love. To be loved. But I am more tired, that rather hoping to be in that state again. Communication is important. You want that guy to try harder, give space, disappear etc. Never ever manipulate someone's feelings. You want sex, you want money, then be make it clear. Explicit intentions are better than hidden ones, that might just mislead someone. Disappoint someone, crushing them horribly, making them wish they had never met you. Don't hurt someone deep inside them. It hurts more than a slap or a punch or a knife stabbed deep in the chest.

It is fine, to be envious, but don't be bitter. I am jealous, especially when my friends have their girls, and I am alone. That pressure. It kills me a little. But having a girlfriend or a boyfriend is not just a possession. And make sure, you are strong enough to take care of yourself before taking care of others. Or at least be sure, that chosen one, that you choose to be in a relationship with, is able to grow with you. Grow together, as a team.

Compliment each other with each other's presence. If your existence in their lives ruin him or her, back off, and learn the meaning of sacrifice.

I have two relationships that I take for real. One that took a huge part of me. I am trying to not think all girls are the same. A beggar may deserve a princess more than a prince. Instability can be coped. It all matters, if all the parties are able to be sensitive, forgiving and compromise.

Sometimes, it is okay to pause things, letting time to solve everything. But sometimes, it hurts so much to be kept hanging. Sometimes, it is worth the fight, but sometimes it is better to let it go.

So I hope, whoever is celebrating Valentine's Day, not only this Friday, but in any following, expressing their love to their partner, strengthen that bond. All or nothing at all.