Nope, not gonna end there. (though it is pretty obvious nothing special I did cause I am stuck in camp)
I have learnt that December is the best month. Not just Christmas. It is the last month of the year.
It is where you would think what you have done, what you have both gain & lost, and knowing what you really want and accomplish. You should be thinking this every single minute of your life, but sometimes we neglect the importance of having a clear mind, and always distracted by the heart.
Most of you guys fall into either of these categories:
1. THE MOST FAMOUS LIFESTYLE; didn't do shit this year, just "nua-ing" and rotting. Nothing bothered you, nothing much gain nor lost. The stagnant one
2. THE LOST ONE; feelings are uncontrolled, impulsivity, confusion, or lack of determination & passion. Having shit piling up into a mountain, or a hole dug deeper till the core of the Earth.
3. THE ACHIEVER... A + B = C; right atttitude + right behaviour = first in character. Let's just say the they are going higher every moment, in any pace.
I must say I fall into category number 2. Yes. Feelings had the best of me. I can say all the shit that has been thrown at me, but HEY.. I believe that God would only give the shit that He knows you can overcome. Can grow from. So I must say, I did a lot of reflection, and I am taking it all on me.
It is not easy this year. Really. Enlisting to National Service, not able to keep my career going by landing into another movie, not able to have my relationship controlled, which also led to the hacking incident despite my intentions were to stand for the right things.
All I had is to have the right intentions. But my actions, my words, were so devoted to my feelings, that my head was not thinking about consequences at all. The word "consequences" was as if deleted from my dictionary.
To be a soldier, a role model, a boyfriend, brother, son, friend, colleague ... being under the limelight, facing all the insults by myself, being only 20 & ambitious.. it is hard, but I could have done better. I wouldn't say, "I don't deserve so much shit" cause I would hate it if all that didn't happen at all. As much as I thought I had lost a lot. Friends, trust, some fans, but I have gained knowledge, experience, and have clearly understood the importance of knowing the consequences. I am still fortunate, I ain't dead. I am still earning. Living. Breathing. I still have people around me. I am not alone. And I have myself standing strong and embracing every single thing in the past. No regrets.
20. NS. A time where I am changing from a boy to a man ... man I will have to be, for the rest of my life. I know the light is bright in the other end of the tunnel. And I hope you guys can learn not just from me, but with me. Cause I do learn from things from you. Every one of you that I encounter in my life. Be it if we never knew that well or we had a relationship or we still do.. people you meet in your life either change you, or you make a change in their lives. Big or small, don't stay stagnant.
So to close this blogpost, let me say, more videos will be up soon. I promise you 2 originals before #ridhwananbes flea which is on the 08.02.2013 (45 days to more)
THESE ARE THE MEASUREMENTS. $39.90 each.
Venue: S*cape@2nd floor
Date: 8th February 2014.
Time: 12pm to 5pm.
Those who pre-ordered ($20 transferred on February 2013), just collect it on that day. Names are on a list posted on this page earlier. Pre-orders has long been gone. Please LIKE my comments below this post, on this page, accordingly to the preferred sizes, based on the measurements. There will be a lucky draw on that day. Stand a chance to win a surprise. So more shirts bought, more chances. #YouCantGetRidOfThisOne SPREAD THIS AROUND
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE COMMENT ON THIS POST WHAT SIZE. AND SEE THE CHART AND MEASURE YOUR BODY LENGTH. Don't ask me "11 years old what size?" cause all 11 year-olds have different body size -.- PLEASE COMMENT, cause I would not want some you guys to come and the size you guys want is out of stock.
For those who pre-ordered, COMMENT ALSO. And just come, I have the list. Don't worry.
And if you guys can't come, what are friends for right? :)
For the ones staying in Malaysia/Brunei or etc.
Email me at firstname.lastname@example.org cause it can be delivered to your country, BUT EMAIL BEFORE 5th Jan :) More details will be mailed to you.
So yea, Merry Christmas & a Happy New Year. To all my friends who stayed with me, all #ridhwannabes that I very, very, very thankful for and special thanks to my family & my bestfriend Jianhao Tan. I wouldn't make it without you :')